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March 3, 2020

When I went to Peru I took about three weeks off of my daily self pleasure practice. This practice was something that I had cultivated over the past several years. And it’s the bread and butter of what I teach. Not only to women but men as well. So letting go of this practice was something totally new for me. This would be the longest break I had from the practice in the past three years. 

I had an abundance of expectations abo...

January 17, 2020

The first day, we were told that we had a 4 hour hike after a 4 hour van ride to get to our destination. 

I was pretty confident that I could do the hike, I considered myself to be relatively fit, even despite the fact I hadn’t hiked more than a few hours in years. 

So as we began the drive out, the roads were much more windy and treacherous than I could have imagined. The twists and turns were so sharp, the bus would have to ho...

January 15, 2020

Of all the travel I have done, no trips I have been on come anywhere even close to this one.

The outstanding things from his trip in Peru can all be summed up in one word: intensity.

The intensity of the altitude, the hike in, the inner personal work that was required the experiences with ceremonies, the amount of circling and sharing, the daily lived experience. It was all so intense.

And that intensity humbled and broke me,...

December 17, 2019

I had over 10 years being totally sober. Not even consuming alcohol at a level that was altering.

I was scared of substances and supplements that altered my state. It was based on having trauma involved in some of my last experiences before making the change. Before I went “sober” I had smoked weeks regularly for about two years and experimented with everything from traditional ecstasy, mushrooms to LSD.

Slowly over the last y...

December 4, 2019

This morning the rain flooded the thick tarp covering my outdoor couches. 

As I was resting after my workout, I was suddenly compelled to go resolve the flooded tarp that I had previously procrastinated fixing. 

As the water poured off the thick blue tarp, a box shape emerged under the corner of the tarp. 

I lifted it up and a water-logged shoebox size parcel awaited. 

Recently I asked a friend to mail a box of my most-prized belo...

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